Nathan James Cooper

I would like to thank everyone who has left candles for Nathan I have been struggling to cope with my Sisters death and then the sudden death of a dearly loved Aunt while on holiday and coming on here has been too hard for me .
Thankyou so much for your continued support



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Nathan James Cooper, January 3d 2005 - February 25th 2005 aged 7 weeks and 4 days.

Nathan was born at 11:18 pm via C section weighing 4bls 13oz a good weight for a baby born almost 8 weeks early, he was taken to special care and did really well, he was allowed home 27 days later on his Mums 20th birthday.. He Joined his sister Catherine-ann who although only just 1 seemed really pleased with her baby brother. Nathan began to thrive and gain weight and liked nothing more than to fall asleep on my rather large boobs. this was a very special time for me and something I am glad I was able to do I was present for his birth and also his sisters so I feel a very special bond with both of them there isn't many Grandparents that can say they were there for the birth of their grandchildren especially as 1 of them was a C section.

the 25th of February will be burned into my memory forever I had just arrived at work at 7am when I received a call from my Son who had been staying with my daughter saying that Nathan was ill and I should get home quickly I asked what was wrong to make him ill and he said that he thought that Nathan had stopped breathing but the ambulance was there and they were taking him to the hospital I rushed to get the train home but as I travelled I sensed that I was too late and that I wouldn\'t see my little man again when I got to the hospital and they showed me into a side room where my daughter was, I knew, seeing her face I knew that he had gone but we clung to the hope that the doctors where working on him! but it wasn\'t to be a short time later the doctor came in the room and I could tell by the look on their faces they said that they couldn\'t restart his heart and that he had gone there was no reason no illness nothing he just went to sleep and did not awake I never thought that anyone could feel such pain losing my mother was bad enough but this seemed 10 fold I could see the pain of my child and wanted to comfort her but I also was hurting for my grandchild and I felt so helpless not something you can put a plaster on and say there there.

Nathan was only here for 7 weeks but in that time he made a mark on all of us and he is so sorely missed at his inquest the coroner gave his cause of death as unascertained as he said he did not like to use the term Sid\'s as this gave a cause and there was none Nathan was a Healthy Thriving Baby and there was absolutely no reason for him to die this is something I find hard to cope with but I take great comfort in the knowledge that Nathan rest's with my Mum Josephine McQueeney also on this site another angel gone too soon ..

SOME PEOPLE DREAM OF ANGELS I HELD ONE IN MY ARMS

There is a special Boy in heaven who is a part of me
It isn't where I wanted him but where God wanted him to be

He was here for just a moment like a night time shooting star
And although he is in heaven he isn't very far

He touched the hearts of many like only angels do
I would have held him that bit longer if the end I only knew

So I send this special message to heaven up above
Please take care of my angel and give him all my love.

Night night Godbless Nathan
from all your loving Family xxxxxxxx


GODS LITTLE ANGEL

You touched our hearts immensely,
You lit our soul up bright,
But then God called back his angel,
He wanted another star at night.

He called your name so silently,
So only you could hear,
He wrapped you in a blanket,
And whispered in your ear.

Nathan I am holding you,
With me you will come home,
Don't fear for those you leave behind,
They'll never be alone

And so everyday you visit,
You spread your peace and love,
To all those here who loved you,
Where for them you wait above.

(author unknown)



5 Minutes

please give me 5 more Minutes Lord
Im begging you today
To give me 5 more minutes Lord
there are things I need to say

I didnt get chance to say them Lord
please forgive me if I cry
I thought hed be here forever Lord
Why did he have to die

So please Lord 5 more minutes
Then as I tend his Grave with care
maybe it wont hurt as Much
when I turn and leave him there.



If Tomorrow Starts without me

If tomorrow starts with out me and I\'m not there to see, If the sun should rise and your eyes All filled with tears for me; I wish so much you woulden\'t cry The way you did today,While thinking of many things, We didn\'t get to say.I know how much you love me, as much as i love you, and each time that you think of me, I know you\'ll miss me too; But when tomorrow starts with out me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, and took me by the hand, and said my place was ready, in heaven far above, and that I\'d have to leave behind All those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye for all my life I\'d always thought, I didn\'t want to die. I had so much left yet to do, I\'t seemed almost impossible, That i was leaving you I thought of all the yesterdays,The good ones and the bad, The thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while, I\'d say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile. But then i fully realized, That this could never be, for emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me. and when I thought of worldy things, I might miss come tomorrow, I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow, But when I walked through heaven\'s gates, I felt so much at home, When God looked down and smiled at me, from his great golden throne, He said, \"This is eternity and all I\'v promised you.\" Today your life on earth is past. But here life starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, and since each day\'s the same way There\'s no longing for the past, You have been so faithful so trusting and so ture, Though there were times , You did some things You knew you shouldent do, But you have been fogiven and now at last you\'re free, So wont you come and take my hand and share my life with me? So when tomorrow starts without me. Don\'t think we\'re far apart, I\'m right here, in your heart.


Thank you for taking the time to read Nathan\'s Story and lighting a candle for him xxxxx